You should read this http://thesestonewalls.com/gordon-macrae/michael-ciresi-companions-faith-along-road-less-traveled/ . It gives me hope.
The ancient monks used to lock themselves in cells to become closer to God. Maybe God is redeeming this whole situation now. Maybe he will make something good out of all of this:
Bonds of true friendship forged in prison are rare, but essential for the sake of spiritual and emotional survival. This is a day in the life of one such bond. Please read and share: “Companions in Faith Upon a Road Less Traveled.”